Despite: Part Two

For all my life, I’ve done what I was told.

I went to school, to build and to mold

A future for myself, the American dream;

A job, a spouse, a child, a house, what more can there be?

And I looked down and saw a black book,

The Bible, it said. With a simple look

I opened it up and I started to read.

Then tears ran down my face, Oh Lord, can it be?

Can it be, is this true, you suffered for me?

For all the sins I’ve done, for all the sin’s I see

me doing in the future, but Lord, you know!

then why die for someone, a sinner, a foe?

But I kept on reading and I saw the seal.

The same seal the Lord put on me for this deal.

It was part of Him that he sealed me with, His self inside of me…

His self inside of me? Oh Lord, How can this be?

I continued to read

and I finally saw

God must change sinners

or else sinners can’t change at all!

This seal, my Lord, is your Spirit.

but my flesh is still sinful.

How can I stop sinning?

How can you continue

to love me when

you do so much?

You have given me instructions.

You have taught me love.

But I still have these desires.

I still have lust.

I don’t want to sin.

How do I stop?

I now go through pages

like a madman looking for a cure.

Book by book…

Verse by verse…

Again I come upon the seal!

The one God used on me!

The Holy spirit is now within me!

And I finally can now see!

What a fool I am

to think I can do anything.

This is all God’s Work.

God chose me…

God wants to use me.

So he sealed me.

Now he will help me

and He will change me.

I can do nothing

without his help.

Oh, my Lord, what ignorance

thinking everything was wealth.

Forgive me Father!

Here I am.

Ready to be called.

Ready to be sent.

Why do you want me?

Why do you care?

Why do you listen?

When no one else is there?

Because you are my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, The Way, The Truth, and The Life.

Despite of Everything.

Despite.